Description : A quintessential look into a day in my life. I'm a crazy, sexy, cool, college chick with goals, dreams, and drama. Come read what's going on in my world!
Sup, I want to jump right into this entry... I want to talk about old relationships and funny men. I am totally lost. Okay. I admit it... I am totally flipping lost. I have told John to call me when he is emotionally ready to work on US. If there was an 'us'? I mean, is a year really enough to get over one's wife... maybe he realized, he really couldn't live without her. Maybe he really is having problems with his child's mother... maybe I should listen to my own advice and not GO BACKWARDS. I always say that to my girlfriends who try it. I haven't really been in this position before and now I know why. Its rarely a good idea to go back to a romantic relationship that didn't work out the first time. I should have kept John strictly as a friend when he came back into my life. This time around, it will have to be he who seeks me out. I deleted his phone # from my cell phone and I refuse to send him and email or use an old text to communicate with him. Everyday, I find something funny about a man. One of bosses wants to have an affair with me, but I won't give in... he's married and have never been a home-wrecker... I have no intentions of starting now. The affair business is funny. Another funny man, is the one who sits behind me. He claims he is 'taken' yet he likes to flirt... ladies, trust me on this, he so freaking sexy, so the temptation is there. The other day he touch my hand and let it linger there... I felt so flush and I let his hand stay there til he moved. I had to tell myself he didn't mean to do it, but how could he not tell he was touching me. Funny! My last example of funny is the guy who used to sit right next to me. He is above average in looks, somewhat funny, highly sarcastic, and has on several ocassions, made it known that he would like to be my "friend with benefits." I am not known to have slept with my friends. I've turned almost all of them down. I mean there is a difference between having a friend, having a sexual relationship, or one night stand. I am not sure how I feel about the latter. I mean, I stil have this notion in my head that a call is trashy if she sleeps with a guy she doesn't know. The other part to this thing is that the guy doesn't have a lot of rap for me when I call him, but when we are in person, he has almost too much to say. I just don't know what to think or what to do. Funny.
Sup, Happy Mother's Day to my MOM and all the mother's out there raising their children as best as they can!! I had origionally planned to buy my mom The Color Purple on DVD format from Amazon, but when I recieved my shipping conformation email, I noticed the order was for VHS. This dashed my plans of course. I tried to email the shipper to see if she had the movie in dvd format... the idiot never emailed me back, so now I have useless movie. I do not have a VCR anymore, my mom doesn't have a vcr either, so I have to send it back, but I had to get her something for mother's day. Usually I take her out, this time I bought her a Giani Bernini handbag ($75), a BEE's hydrating au natural kit ($16), and one of the cutest greeting cards ever ($5), additionally, I bought a card, face revitalizing cream and makeup bag for my little brother to give to her. I did tell her about the vhs fiasco, she looked disappointed :-(. Hopefully she will have very enjoyable day. Special hello to , Aunt's J, B, M, E, and V!! Also, Sister, Michelle, Sherrie, Shana N crew: Shay, Shyheim, Jaz, Sal, Nya, Mahog, and Kaseem.
Sup, Its been a little while since I've been on here, but I wanted to stop by and see what was good. I see there are some new blogs, I will be sure to read them when I am finished with this entry. I don't really have much to report, other than I've ended an internet friendship because he didn't resepect boundaries. I miss him though, but enough was enough. Toodles Paul. In other news, I've hurt my ankle in a slip on dewey grass about a week ago. It was getting better, til I twisted it getting in the car three days ago. Its finally feeling better again. Whew, I don't like hobbling about. Yesterday was my bosses b-day. The entire office chipped in money for a humongous cake and money in a card. I personally contributed $10. Me another gal gave him something extra. The other gal, playfully nick-named road rage, organized a liquor and wine glass basket, and I bought a balloon on a stick and a card (another $6). We each gave him a warm hug when we delivered our goodies. But I suppose he was still hungry for my sugar, because on my way to the ladies room I bumped into him and he requested a full hug. You the know the one where he can get a full free fill of my tata's. You know the difference between that hug and a friendship hug, because a friendship hug is either done with one arm and brief or two arms and pats on the back. Our hug was neither. I know he thinks I'm a doll, but I'm no home wrecker...never have been. Besides, I know he couldn't handle my princess ways anyway!
Sup, Today I went through a mix of emotions at work. I was feeling a little rejected by this cutie at work, because I had called his extension and he said that he was busy with a client, but when I went to see for myself, I noticed he wasn't. I CAN'T STAND LIARS AND IF HE REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO TALK HE COULD HAVE JUST SAID HE COULDN'T TALK. So I copped an attitude. The somewhat cutie who sits to my left was trying everything to get my attention... opening my desk drawers to taking things off my desk to touching my arm. I finally cracked a little bit, but I remained standoffish until about 1:30p. I had finally grown a little hungry, so I poured some sun chips onto a napkin and began munching on them. Moments later and in between bites, the same guy I felt snubbed by came over and took the entire napkin of sun chips. I suppose he was trying to taunt me, but I was still pissed at him, so I chose to ignore him. After a few minutes he began asking me questions about my preference of the chip and telling me which flavor he liked best. He apologized for just taking the chips. He stated, he normally would ask first, but he was hungry. The guy next to me seemed to pick up on the other cutie's vibe and began saying all types of sexual connotated suggestions. He even ragged on the fact that I was interested in jumping the bones of the other guy. I made a comment that I was tired, he said it was prolly because, my boyfriend and been munching on me all night. He even got to the point where he challenged my pleasure capabilities... boasting that he would have me in all types of ways and hitting pleasure points. I know he has a girlfriend, but it doesn't seem like he is 100% committed. I tired to stand my ground, but wow I was blushing so much, it was hard to hide how I felt.... a school girl ready to experiment. Woah mama... I was ready, willing, and very able. But I have to keep things professional and I have to keep level heading. I am not interested in a one night stand. I am in search of something more rewarding, someone more giving, someone emotional and physically available. Grr, I have to get in the bed, but I must write about John next. We have had some turmoil in baby-mama-drama.
Sup, For years now i've been told that I have a great speaking voice. If I was giving a speech, I was told that I am articulate. If I am singing, I can carry a tune. If I am reading a PSA over the phone, I sound like a commercial. Well I am finally going to act on talent, that I've been given. I am signing up for a six week voice over class with a reputable casting agency. The class is $345 plus transporation... I am forking over the dough, because I know this is an investment into me. Into a talent that I could possibly turn into a career if I prove I have that X-factor. Can you imagine.. raw talent, plus the guidance to perfect it? I am going for it. Tomorrow, i'm going to pay for the class and on April 30, I will be sitting in my first class. Woohoo! I told my mom, while she is happy for me, she couldn't help but ask why didn't I just major in theater or acting while attending college. She had a good point, but I was once told, no one makes money in the field... I suppose its because its so competitive. But I have been thinking and thinking of ways to be even more successful in life and spending time working on something that I love. I can do it. I am already driven, beyond starving, and excited to get started. I hope it will be more than what I expect it to be. I really do want it to be a rewarding experience and a way for me to get both feet in the door of this entertainment sect.
