Amy Winehouse was "engulfed in shame" after her drugs overdose.
The troubled singer - who was hospitalised in August after taking a cocktail of heroin, ketamine, cocaine and ecstasy - says she owes her life to husband Blake Fielder-Civil and claims she doesn't even recognise herself from that turbulent time.
She said: "I really thought I was on the way out. My husband Blake saved my life when he brought me into the hospital. I often don't know what I do. Then the next day my memory returns, and I'm engulfed in shame.
"I recently saw a picture of myself when I came out of the hospital, and I didn't recognise myself anymore. I believe I live through pain - if you suffer for something, it means it's important."
The 24-year-old singer has also confessed she self-harms because she suffers from severe bouts of "depression".
She told Germany's Stern magazine: "I feel that a black cloud hangs over me. I have taken pills for depression but they slowed me down. I believe there are lots of people who have these mood changes.
"I'm just really lucky to have found this outlet - my music."
Amy is currently in the middle of a European tour, which she had to originally postpone in the wake of her overdose, and will be performing in Paris' renowned Le Zenith concert hall on Monday (29.10.07). | 
